‘We have been happy, haven’t we?’ Chapter 1

Cora has told Robert she is ill. While they go through the process of finding out what is wrong, they look back at their live together. (Based on the storyline of A New Era.)

Cora was standing on the deck, this trip to France had worn her out. She was happy they were going back home. She felt relieved that she finally told Robert she was ill. Robert said they would go straight to Dr. Clarkson as soon as they were home. She had enjoyed these days in France, Cora felt a hand on her lower back, it was Robert.

Softly he kissed her cheek. “Hello darling, it is time for a nap.”

Cora slid her arm around his waist and rested her head against his shoulder. “In a minute” she answered. Robert’s hand was still resting on her lower back, his fingers trying to keep her close. She wanted to hold on to this feeling. What if this was the last trip they ever made together. Cora took in a shaky breath, now she had told Robert she was ill, it was harder to stay strong. She felt Robert´s hand tighten around her waist.

“Come, I will lay down with you.” He said and notched her off the deck.

Cora willingly followed him. Baxter came in to help her with her dress.

Robert was discreetly waiting outside the cabin. When Baxter left the room, he stepped inside and closed the door behind him. Cora was already in bed, her eyes were closed, she looked frail. Why did he not see how ill she was during the days in France. They did so much, and she never complained. He smiled when he thought of that boat ride with…. he paused…. his brother? No, he shook of that thought, he should still think of him as the Marquis de Montmirail. Cora looked so relaxed that day and when she took his hand, he felt only love. He could have stayed all day on that boat with her.

“Are you coming, or are you staying there?” Cora’s voice sounded; she startled Robert.

Quickly he took of his clothes and changed into his pyjamas. When he got in bed, Cora immediately scooted closer, she put her hand on his arm, her face rested inches away from his. He kissed the tip of her nose and Cora let out a soft moan.

“I could sleep forever.” She murmured.

Robert covered her hand with his hand and said. “Wait a little bit longer with that my darling.”

His words made Cora press her lips against his. “If it is up to me, I will.”

Robert felt Cora’s lips curl up in a smile. Two nights ago, she told him she was ill, cancer. Oh, her words… he could still hear her say: I think I have cancer. He had insisted on going to a good doctor, and she, his Cora, was standing a couple of steps away from him, being her rational self. He was angry she did not tell him, before they left for this trip, but of course she had thought about it. She did not want to ruin this last treat before illness would take over their lives. What would the future have instore for them, would he lose her? He could not bear the thought of losing his mother and his beloved Cora. And what if he was the brother of de Marquis? That meant he would lose his title and reputation.

“Robert.” Cora moved her hand over his chest. “Let go of whatever you were thinking off and try to get some sleep. You need it too.”

Robert turned on his side, so he was facing Cora. She had her eyes closed, oh how beautiful she was. “I love you.” He said while pressing his lips against her forehead.

Cora folded her hands under her pillow, and he saw her breathing getting slower, she was falling asleep, he should follow her example.

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Robert helped Cora to the dining area, she was unstable on her legs. He had hoped that sleeping would make her feel better, but it did not seem to have any affect. Just before they reached the dining room, she pulled her arm back and straightened her back. She did not want to show any weakness towards, Edith and Bertie, Tom and Lucy or Maud. Cora patted Robert’s arm. “Thank you darling.”

“Mama, Papa there you are.” Edith said.

“Being on the sea made us sleepy, so we took an afternoon nap.” Robert said, taking his seat. He saw Carson pulling back Cora’s chair.

“This trip was wonderful, but I am glad when we are back home.” Edith said.

“Did you miss the children?” Bertie asked.

“I even missed the children.” Cora said, smiling at Edith.

Carson and other servers entered the room with their dinner. They all chatted about how wonderful the trip had been. Robert looked around the table and he could not be prouder of where they were today. Tom being married again; he had grown fond of that dear boy. Who would have thought. The day Sybil announced she and Tom were going to marry, he had lost it. Now looking back, he hugely misjudged Tom’s character. All though Tom had also grown a lot since he was a member of their house.

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Robert had brought Cora to a small sitting area; the rest was playing cards in a different room. Maud had announced to go to bed early. Cora asked if they could stay up for a little bit more. The fireplace was lit, and she was sitting in front of it. Robert gave her a drink and sat next to her on the settee. “Did you mean it when you said: ‘I loved you from the start?”

Cora smiled. “I loved you from the moment you asked to be on my dance card. I cannot describe what happened, but the twinkle in your eye got me and I was sold” She looked into his eyes. “That is exactly the twinkle I meant; you still have it.”

Robert twirled his glass around in his hands. “I am ashamed for not loving you from the start, and only marrying you for your money.”

“Darling, it does not matter. As I said, you needed the money and I had it. You fell in love with me and that is what counts.”

“Did you have doubts when our wedding day arrived?” Robert asked, still playing with his glass.

Cora chuckled. “Of course, I had doubts, but what could I do? I was promised to you. But I let out some tears right before a walked the aisle. I was looking at myself in the mirror and got incredibly scared. How was I ever going to be a good wife for you, but most of all, how was I going to be a good Lady of the house.”

“I remember that.” Robert said quietly.

“You remember? How? I did not cry walking down the aisle?”

“No, you definitely did not cry while walking. You were the epiphany of grace in that moment. But I could see it in your eyes, I thought it was because I was taking you away from America and pulling you into a world you did not know.”

“I still feel the nerves I felt in the beginning of our marriage.” Cora smiled. “Your mother did not make it easy.”

“My mother never makes anything easy.”

“That is true.” Cora leaned in on Robert, she finished her drink. “I will call for Baxter and go to bed.” She raised her hand to cup his cheek. “I love you.” She kissed his lips and got up. She grabbed Robert’s shoulder when she felt unsteady. “Can I use your arm?” She asked.

Is this love? Chapter 47

“Thank you, John.” Robert said, when he and John stepped out of the office. “I will place the advert for a second chef, so we both can spend more time with our loved ones.” He patted John on his back. “How is little Johnny doing?”

“He is a wonderful little chap. Now hurry up, your weekend is waiting.”

Robert got in a cab; his destination was ‘Silver Linings’. He booked the Samphire Suite in the Norfolk Mead hotel. He arranged with Andrew a couple of days off for Cora in two weeks from now. Robert was excited to spend time together. He was now going to take her to Bath. They would stay one night and then go back home tomorrow. He booked a Spa treatment for them both.

He greeted Andrew who was standing in the hallway. “Cora is in her office.” He said.

The door to her office was half open, he could see her sitting in front of her laptop. She was focused on what she was doing. Robert knocked, and he got an annoyed look from Cora, until she saw who was knocking.

“Darling? Did I forget an appointment?”

Robert walked around her desk and kissed Cora’s cheek. Softly brushing her back. “No, no you are not forgetting anything. But I am here to take you home, I have a surprise for you.” Robert saw Cora was smiling, but her eyes did not smile with her mouth. How he wished she would tell him what was bothering her. He bend down and wrapped both arms around her, pulling her close to his chest. He felt Cora leaning back in her chair and accepting his comforting. “Can you finish what you were doing? Or do you need some more time?”

Cora moved her hand towards Robert’s cheek. “I do not have to finish this today; I can continue with it on Monday. Where are you taking me?” Cora was not good with surprises but tried to sound enthusiastic.

“You will see.” He took her hand and pulled her up.

Quickly Cora saved her work and put her laptop in her bag.

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Cora was upstairs packing her bag, Robert’s bag was already packed and waiting in the hallway. It took Cora more time than Robert expected. He walked towards their bedroom and found her on sitting on the bed. She was staring in front of her. Robert stepped towards her and sat down next to Cora. Gentle he took her hand in his and placed a kiss on it. He noticed Cora now stared at the ground.

“Can you please tell me what is wrong? Are you ill? Should I cancel Bath?”

Cora, still staring, shook her head and said softly. “No.”

“I noticed your smile is slowly fading over the last couple of weeks. No months even, please make me part of what is bothering you.”

“Oh Robert.” Cora turned towards him and took his hands. Robert saw tears in her eyes. “Why am I still not pregnant?” She inhaled shakily.

Without a word, Robert wrapped his arms around Cora and pressed her against him. Stroking her hair with his hand. How could he have been so stupid not realising that this was bothering Cora. Of course, she was worried. Her operation was a couple of months back. “Sweetheart, there is no reason to despair yet.” He took her chin between his thumb and index finger. “Maybe we should try it more often.” He chuckled, but Cora swatted at his chest.

“Robert!” She said indignant. “This is not the time.”

Robert was still holding her chin between his fingers; he lifted her chin and planted a kiss on her lips. “Maybe our relaxing trip will help, we both have been extremely busy these couple of months.”

“Can you please tell me where we are going?” Cora rested her hand in Robert’s neck and played with his hair. Once again, he needed a haircut she thought. Cora chuckled, he would never think about that himself, if it was not up to her to remind him occasionally, he needed a haircut, he would have had a ponytail.

“What is so funny?” Robert asked with raised eyebrows.

“I only tell you, when you tell me where we are going.”

Robert’s eyes darkened in a playful manner, even though she knew he was not mad, it gave her chills.

Robert noticed his mistake when Cora stiffened up. Quickly he kissed her cheek. “I am sorry darling; I did not mean to scare you. We are going to Bath. I booked a Spa Day.”

Finally, he saw a twinkle in Cora’s eyes. “I have another surprise for you.” Now Cora’s eyes really lid up. “We are going on a proper holiday in two weeks’ time. Andrew gave you time off. We are going to Norwich, I booked us a suite for 10 days.”

Cora pressed her lips against Robert’s. She was planning on just a quick kiss, but Robert’s hand moved to the back of her head, and he pressed his tongue into her mouth. She let out a soft moan, which aroused Robert. He pushed her back on to the bed, Cora laid down, she wrapped her leg around him, to keep him close.

Robert moved his kisses to her neck, his hands roaming over her body. He started to open her blouse when Cora took his hands in hers. “This way we will never go to Bath.” She said trying to control her breath.

Robert let out a low growl. “You are right, but you are irresistible.”

“Tonight, I will not resist.” Cora smiled. “But now, I have too.” She wiggled herself underneath Robert, kissed his cheek briefly and put the last things in her bag.

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It was already the last day of their holiday in Norwich. Robert slept in, but Cora had gone out early. She was now sitting on the bedside, looking at Robert. She was blessed with him as her husband. He could be very occupied with ‘Le Grantham’ and sometimes forget she had brains in her head too, but overall, he was very caring. And she never had seen a more handsome man. She could not explain it, but it was the way he looked at her. The way he looked at her, when he leaned in for a kiss, was incredible. She could drown in his eyes. The blue in his eyes changed with his mood. Robert moved and bumped into her; he opened his eyes.

“Cora?” His voice groggy. “Everything alright?”

Cora brushed his cheek with her finger and softly kissed his lips. “More, then alright.” She smiled.

Robert shook his head, not understanding what she meant.

Cora took his hand in hers, in her other hand she had a small package. “Open it.” She said, handing it to him.

Robert sat up and looked at the package. “It is not my birthday?”

“I know, just open it.”

Robert started unwrapping the ribbon, Cora had trouble holding in her excitement. Robert’s eyes grew. “Are you? Is this?” He looked down at the strip in his hands, shaking his head in disbelieve. “Is it really?”

“Yes.” Cora had a big smile on her face and her eyes started to tear up. “Yes, it is real. I am pregnant.”

“Oh, my darling.” Robert kissed her, he looked down again. “I cannot believe it. Did it really happen?”

Cora wrapped her arms around him and pulled him close. She rested her head on his shoulder. “It is really happening, we are blessed.”

“We need to call Dr. Clarkson.”

Cora moved her hand over Robert’s back. “We are going to have a baby.”

Robert pushed Cora back and took her face in her hands. “I am going to take such good care of you. You are not lifting anything anymore and will take a lot of rest.” He moved his hand to her abdomen. “Hello little one, please stay safe in there.”

Cora covered Robert’s hand. “It will all work out this time, I feel it.”

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9 months later.

“You do not know how proud I am off you.” Robert said bending down to kiss Cora and then the little girl’s head. “Finally, you are here my little one.” He looked up into Cora’s eyes. “We are a real family now.”

Cora looked down at the little girl in her arms. “We are.” She looked up again. “We truly are.”

“Mary Josephine.” Robert said softly, stroking softly over her cheek.

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Another end of a story, I hope you enjoyed this one. I tried some different writing style’s and go more into the emotions. I need to thank Pam and Za for all the help with this one. Your insights helped me going more into depth. And as always, my dear friend Maja, who is still my drive and why I write fanfictions. 

There is a new story waiting in my head to come out. I will start writing that one, and soon also start uploading it. I can already reveal the title: ‘We have been happy, haven’t we?’

Is this love? Chapter 46

Robert was extremely busy the last months, he rarely was home. He came home when Cora was already a sleep and woke up when she was at the office. They shared a brief kiss in the morning, when Cora got up and before she left home, she kissed him goodbye. They made it a habit, since Marmaduke’s death, to never leave without saying goodbye. Even if the other one was sleeping.

Robert loved those morning kisses; Cora brought a whiff of scent with her. She always used the same scents, a light sweet flowery smell.

In the weekends Cora staid in bed with him. Especially the Sunday morning was his favourite. Saturday nights were incredibly busy at the restaurant and more than once he did not come home before 2.00 o’clock. Cora was asleep by that time. When he crawled in bed, she always put her hand on his back, arm or hand for a brief second. She did not really wake up, but acknowledge him coming home and then in the morning, she had a lie in. Sunday was the only day she stayed until he woke up. On Saturdays she had enough to do, but they dedicated the Sunday morning to each other.

Some days they cuddled, or laid next to each other reading a book, but most of the time they had terrific fun.

It was a Saturday morning and Cora was already up when Robert woke. He heard music playing downstairs and smelled she was baking. He looked at the clock, it was 11.00 o’clock. He stretched and got out of bed. Quickly he took a shower.

Downstairs he found Cora in the kitchen. He put his hand on her hips and kissed her cheek. “Good morning, my darling.”

Cora turned her face and smiled. “Good morning, my love.”

But Robert noticed she was forcing her smile. He softly squeezed her hips, deciding not to force her to tell him what was wrong, he asked. “What are you making?”

“A Victoria Sponge cake.” She answered turning back to her work.

“I love Sponge cake, when can I try?” He rested his chin on Cora’s shoulder.

Cora put her hand on Robert’s cheek, leaving a trail of powder on it. “Your mother will be here in about an hour, then you can taste.”

Robert stood straight. “My mother?” He asked.

Cora sighed. “Please do not tell me you forgot?”

It was a good thing Cora was not looking at him, because his cheeks were bright red. “I, I have to admit. I did forget.”

Another sigh from Cora. “Your mother and Rosamund are coming; I have told you this.”

“I am sorry.” He stepped back. “I will change in something more suitable.” He was walking around in an old jeans and t-shirt.

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“Mama, good to see you.” Cora kissed her mother-in-law on both cheeks.

Robert greeted his sister. “We are in for a treat; Cora made a Victoria Sponge cake.

Cora felt instantly nervous, Robert was always exaggerating her baking qualities, but compared to him she was an amateur baker. Although he always said, he was good at cooking, not baking. Cora still felt insecure, especially when she made something so typical English.

After they all sat down and Cora served tea, Robert said: “Mama? When was the last time you were in Downton?”

Violet just brought her fork towards her mouth but stopped. “That is years ago, I do not even remember when.”

“Then it is high time I will take you there.” Robert said, he looked at Rosamund. “You should come too; I think Cora would love to spend time with you there.” He gave a warm smile to Cora, but the smile on her face was not genuine. He saw Cora getting up.

“I will make some more tea.” And she disappeared into the kitchen.

Rosamund tried to catch Robert’s eye and without words directed him to follow Cora.

Robert got up and closed the kitchen door behind him. He saw Cora leaning on the kitchen counter, clearly trying to hold back her tears. He stepped towards her and put his hand on her shoulder blade. “Something is bothering you.” He said. “Can I help?”

Cora shrugged her shoulders.

“Cora?” Robert insisted.

Cora wrapped her arms around Robert and pressed her face against his chest.

Robert mimicked Cora’s movement and wrapped both arms around her and hold her close. Brushing her back and making sussing sounds. Slowly he pushed her back, took her face in his hands and kissed her forehead. “Mama will wonder where we are. Are you alright?”

Cora nodded. She cupped his cheek. “Thank you, I am.” She got on the tip of her toes and kissed him. “But I can’t go to Downton.”

“What? You are not coming with me?” Robert’s hands slipped of Cora’s shoulders.

Cora lowered her eyes. “Andrew accepted a new client and we have a difficult order in our hands. I need to be at the office the coming weeks. Although I would love to come and walk around Downton with Rosamund. I bet she can tell me a lot about the village.”

Robert lifted Cora’s chin. “Do not blame yourself, I did not discuss this plan with you. I totally forgot the fact that you have your job at ‘Silver Linings’ I am sorry.”

Cora straightened her back. “Now, let’s go back inside, your mother and Rosamund are waiting.”

Robert followed Cora. There was something else bothering her, he should make time to talk with her. He noticed that everyday her smile was fading a little bit more. He would take some time off and take her somewhere. Her birthday was coming up, so that was a perfect reason to go away. Yes, that he would do. A plan was forming in his head, and he smiled just thinking about a holiday together with Cora. The last trip they made was to America and that one was cut short.

Is this love? Chapter 45

Robert returned from his ride. He took one of the horses that was in the stables, he loved riding here in the countryside. Cora was sleeping in. The operation was three days ago, and she was starting to feel better. The first two days, she had some bleeding and cramping, but that was normal.

It was a cold spring day; you could feel the abbey was still cold from the winter. Thomas walked towards Robert and took his jacket.

Robert headed upstairs; in the corner of his eye, he saw Mrs. Hughes.

“Her Ladyship is in the library” she said.

“Thank you, Mrs. Hughes. I will change first.”

“Of course, Milord. Do I need to send Thomas up?”

Robert smiled, he did not need anybody to help him undress, but this whole house had stood still in time. “Thank you, but that is not necessary. I will manage.” Quickly he changed out of his riding clothes and went back downstairs, he entered the library, where he saw Cora in front of the fireplace. She was sitting on the settee, reading a book. She had put her hair in a lose braid, some curls had escaped. He stood still in the doorway, watching. He saw Cora’s slender fingers turning the page, her eyes moving over the paper. He closed the door softly, Cora turned her head and looked at him. The moment she saw Robert, there was the brightest smile on her face.

“There you are.” She stretched out her hand. Robert got closer and put his hand in hers, sitting down next to her.

“This is nice.” He said, warming his hands.

Cora leaned in on him. “For a big house, it can have its cosy spots.”

Robert looked around him, the library was not really a cosy room, none of the rooms were. All were just a little bit too big, to become cosy. He chuckled. “There is just one really cosy spot in this house.” He said this with a grin on his face.

Cora swatted at his knee. “Stop that, behave.” But she said this with a smile. “We should go home soon.”

Robert turned towards Cora. “Are you sure?”

Cora moved her hand towards Robert cheek. “I am feeling fine. The bleeding has stopped.” She felt Robert squirm, he hated talking about things like that. “I know, this is your estate, but I prefer to be in our own home.”

“Speaking of our own home.” He started. “We should decide what we are going to do, live at my place and sell your house. Or sell both and buy something new?”

He saw Cora had to think for a second. “We should sell my house. We are perfectly happy in your house, and we have enough space.” She put her hand on her abdomen.

Robert put his hand on top of her. “Who knows, we might need to use the extra rooms soon.” He looked up again into her beautiful blue eyes. Her eyes were so full of love, he almost melted. What had he done to deserve to be this happy?

“We should start packing.” Cora got up, she kissed Robert and walked out of the library.

Robert quickly followed, took her hand and they walked hand in hand upstairs.

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Cora closed the door behind her. “Good to be home.” She put her jacket on the coat rack and kicked off her shoes.

“There is no place like home. Although my home is where you are.” He kissed Cora’s neck and disappeared into his office.

Cora knew there must have been a lot of work for the restaurant. Robert did not bring his laptop to Downton. She had loved him for that. He was fully focussed on her, luckily, she could persuade him to go out after the first day, otherwise he would have been next to her the whole time. Even though she loved him, she needed her own time. She watched him walking towards his office. He had tiny love handles, she loved how he was like a teddy bear. He had forgotten to take his shaver to Downton, and now he had a full stubble beard. Surprisingly, it was a soft beard and Cora noticed she loved playing with the little hairs. ‘Should I leave it on?’ He had asked this morning. Cora got into the kitchen, to check was she needed from the supermarket, when the doorbell rang.

“I will get it.” She yelled towards Robert’s office door. She knew perfectly well, Robert would not even try to open the door, but still.

“Oh, hello, that is a surprise.” She said when she opened the door.

Standing on the doorstep were Anna and John, with little Johnny.

“Come in, come in.” Cora stepped back and took both their coats. “You know the way.” She pointed towards the hallway. Quickly she went over to Robert’s office, opened the door, sticking her head around the corner. “We have guest, are you coming?”

“I need to finish this and then I will come. We were not expecting anybody I thought?”

Cora opened the door fully and walked towards Robert. You are correct. but you cannot let them wait, please come. They are your friends.”

“Little Johnny is here?” His whole face lit up.

Cora smiled and nodded. “Yes, he is and apparently he brought his parents with him, she chuckled.

Robert rushed out of his office to great them. Cora stayed behind for a second, her hand moved to her abdomen, they should wait for at least two weeks before they could try. It would be wonderful if the operation worked. Robert needed a little one, seeing his face lit up, when he saw Johnny was heart-warming. She hoped she would give him the joy of being a father one day.

Is this love? Chapter 44

Robert glanced at Cora, they were sitting in Dr. Clarkson, she would get her operation this afternoon. He saw her taking a deep breath. He reached for her hand, and she closed her fingers around his. She did not look at him, but she squeezed his hand firmly.

“I will see you in theatre.” Dr. Clarkson said. He touched Cora’s shoulder and walked out of the room.

“Are you nervous?” Robert asked.

Cora nodded, she stared in front of her. “I know, this is not a big operation, only a hysteroscopy, but still.”

“I wish I could go with you and hold your hand.”

Cora turned her face and looked at him. “It is enough you are holding it right now and will do when I come back.” She smiled.

A nurse entered the office. “Are you ready Lady Grantham.

Cora sighed, she thought she had made it clear she didn’t want to be called like that. Robert squeezed her hand and held her back for a second. “Darling, they cannot help it, it is your title, and they are expected to use it.”

“I just cannot get used to it. I am not a lady.”

“Oh, but you are more than a lady.” Robert grinned and notched her out of Dr. Clarkson’s office.

Cora turned around and kissed Robert. “I love you.” She said while walking away.

“I love you too.” Robert said. He spotted Isobel in the hallway and walked towards her, kissing her cheek while greeting her. “Hello Isobel.”

“Hello Robert, I figured you could use some company during the wait.” She said.

Robert wasn’t sure he wanted company but didn’t want to send her away.

Once they sat down in the waiting area, Isobel started. “Cora will have to put her legs up in supports, then the doctor will insert a speculum to be able to insert a hysteroscope. With that thin tube he can do the procedure.”

Robert squirmed, he never liked medical details. “How long will she be under?”

“That depends how easy he can remove the scar tissue.” Isobel put her hand on Robert’s arm. “She will be fine.”

Robert nodded.

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“You will feel sleepy in a couple of minutes, do not fight the feeling. Try to give in, we will take good care of you.” The nurse said to Cora.

Cora was already laying in the bed, with her legs in the supports. A sheet was covering her lower halve. She took a shaky breath, Cora felt anxious. What if Dr. Clarkson could not remove everything. Or worse something went really wrong. Did she tell Robert she loved him enough? She felt tears stinging in her eyes.

Gently someone took her hand, it was the nurse. “Take a deep breath, think about happy things and do not worry too much. You are in the capable hands or Dr. Clarkson.”

Cora nodded and looked up to the nurse. She saw her calm face and calmed down herself. All of the sudden she was tired, Cora heard the nurse talk, but she could not react.

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When Cora woke up, she heard a lot of beeping, she was confused for a second.

“Everything went well Lady Grantham.” A nurse said. “How are you feeling?”

“Alright I think.” She answered. “It feels like I am on my period.”

“That is totally normal Milady. You will have some bleeding and cramps, but those will go away within a couple of days. We will bring you back to your room now.”

Cora was wheeled back to her room, she felt weird lying in this bed and being driven around, but it also made her sleepy.

“How is she doing?” Robert asked, when the nurses wheeled her in. He looked at her relaxed face.

“She is doing fine. The doctor will come and update you soon.”

“Can I talk to her? Or do I need to let her sleep?”

The nurse smiled. “She is still groggy and sleepy from the anaesthesia, but you can talk to her. It will help her wake up.”

Robert bent down and kissed Cora softly on the lips once the nursed had gone. Cora’s eyes did not open, but he saw a smile on her lips. He kissed her again and sat down.

Cora’s hand searched for Robert’s. “Did it work?” She asked.

“We do not know that yet, sweetheart.”

Cora slowly nodded. “I feel weird.” She said.

“That will go away within the next hour.” Dr. Clarkson’s voice sounded.

“Dr. Clarkson.” Robert got up and shook his hand.

“I was able to remove 90% of the scar tissue. Your uterus looks good, I did not find any other problems and I except that you will be up and running in two days. For today and tomorrow I want you to do it slow. We do not want any bleedings. You will see some blood, but that is normal. When it starts changing colour or amount, I need you to call me.”

“When can she go home?” Robert asked.

“I want her Ladyship to be a bit more awake and then after she ate something and went to the bathroom, you are free to go home.”

“Good.” Robert said relieved.

“Are you going back to London? Or are you staying here?” Dr. Clarkson asked.

“I was planning on driving back to London tonight.”

“If I may.” Dr. Clarkson started. “I advise her Ladyship to take some rest and not be in the car for so long.”

“So, it is better if we stay here in Downton, you are saying?” Robert frowned but made the decision to stay. He would call John to take over for the test of the week. They were not going home yet. Cora needed her rest, and to be honest he could use it too.

Dr. Clarkson left the room.

“Robert.” Cora’s voice was insecure. Quickly Robert turned back to Cora and took her hand in his.

“What is it darling?” He saw Cora’s worried face and it worried him.

“If this didn’t help, I would understand if you wanted a divorce.”

Robert was to stunned to speak for a minute. He scraped his throat. “Where is this coming from.” He squeezed Cora’s hand. “I love you, with or without baby.”

“Are you sure?”

“As sure, as I am sitting here, holding your hand. Oh, my darling, try not to worry too much. We will know soon if it worked and if it did not, we will be as happy as we are now.” He saw Cora’s eyes falling shut. He felt a pain in his heart. Cora wanted a baby so badly, and now she was scared she would not be good enough for him anymore. He kissed the tip of her nose. “Try to sleep some more, I will be here holding your hand.” Cora let out a deep sigh and Robert saw her falling asleep right away.

Is this love? Chapter 43

Robert walked back to the restaurant after visiting the local butcher. Next week, there would be a celebrity at his restaurant, and he wanted to make sure to have the best meat that evening. It was a nice spring day, so he had decided to walk back. In the distance he saw a woman walking. Robert recognized her movements. The way she was swaying her hips, how her back was straight, with her shoulders straightened. He sped up his pace and managed to catch up with her. He put his hand in hers, the woman pulled her hand back and pushed him away. He tripped down the stairs she just reached.

He sat up and looked into the scared eyes of Cora. “Hello, darling.” He said smiling foolish.

Cora kneeled. “You Donk, why did you scare me like that. I am so sorry for pushing you. Are you alright?” She reached to his cheek.

Robert looked at his knuckles, who were bleeding. He touched his ankle, which felt bruised. “I am not sure if I can stand.” He frowned.

“Lean on me, while you get up.” Cora offered him her hand, and he pulled himself up. It hurt to put wait on his ankle, but he could stand on it.

Cora took his hand in hers and carefully touched his knuckles, she brought his hand to her mouth and softly placed a kiss on it. “Try to walk.”

Robert stepped forwards, but immediately felt, he was not able to walk. “Aww, that really hurts.” He complained.

Cora frowned. “You are not going back to work. I will call for a cab and bring you home.”

Robert wanted to protest but saw the look in Cora’s eyes and knew he should better listen. Even though he tried. “I can do some paperwork, this afternoon. I will let John do the work.” He heard Cora breath in, and he did not even need to look at her, to know the expression that would be on her face. He smiled, he loved her so much, it was incredible how you could love someone.

Cora put her phone back in her bag. “What are you smiling about?”

“I realised how blessed I am with you.” He wrapped his arm around her waist and pulled her close.

“I push you down the stairs and you are feeling blessed? I married a strange man.” Cora chuckled.

“Well, if this is your response, when a stranger takes your hand, I am only more blessed. Come here.” He moved his hand to her neck and kissed her. He tried to enter her mouth with his tongue but got pushed back.

“Not on the street.” She put her hand on his cheek. “I love you, but we are in public. The cab driver will be here soon, he said he was around the corner.”

The moment Cora said that a cab stopped. Cora pulled Robert’s hand over her shoulder and let him use her as a crutch. Together they wobbled towards the car.

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Robert had fallen asleep on the sofa. Cora had brought him home, she herself had to go back to her office, when Robert saw her on the street, she was just out for an afternoon stroll. He felt guilty for scaring her, and at the same time, he could not love her more at that moment. He stretched and felt a weight on his lap. He looked down and saw Cora had laid down on his lap. He caressed her chestnut brown curls. She had let her hair down, Robert loved it when her hair was down like this. It gave her face an even more angelic look. He twirled a string of her hair on his finger. With his other hand he softly brushed her cheek. It woke her up.

Cora looked up and Robert saw the familiar twinkle in her eyes. He was glad it was back; they had a rough couple of weeks, and he saw pain in Cora’s eyes every day. He wishes there was an easy solution to her pain, but there was not. Yes, there was an option to operate, but it did not mean she would be able to get pregnant. He knew how much she was longing to have a little one in her arms. He knew she was meant to be a mother and he would do anything to make that dream come true.

“What are you thinking?” Cora said with a soft voice.

She knew perfectly well, what that expression on his face meant. She felt a pain in her heart, she could not give him what he was wanting. She was not able to give him a family.

“I am sorry, Robert.” She said, with a tick voice and sat up straight.

Robert took her hand. “Why are you sorry? I tripped down those stairs myself.”

“It is not that.” She lowered her eyes. “I…. I just wish I could give you the family you want.”

“Oh, darling. My darling, come here.” He put out his hands to pull her close in a tight hug. He kissed the top of her head. “You are all the family I need. You are my world.”

Cora let out a soft cry. She felt Robert strong hands on her back, and she let him reassure her. “Do you think, we need to try that operation?”

“Only if you are up for it. I do not want to force you into that operation. It does not give us any guarantee.”

“I know.” Cora stopped for a second and took a deep breath. “But I will never forgive myself if we do not try, everything that we can. And that means having this operation.”

“Cora.” Robert took her face in his hands. “Do not force yourself, we will only go through with it, if you really want it.”

“I want a baby.” Cora’s voice was almost inaudible. “A baby from you.”

Robert kissed away the tear that rolled down her cheek. “Then we will give Dr. Clarkson a call and prepare for it.” He kissed her other cheek when another tear rolled down. “Now, I do not know about you, but I am pretty hungry.”

Cora shot up and looked at the clock. “Oh no, dinner.” She got up and walked towards the kitchen.

“Cora, I did not mean.” He sighed, got up and limped towards the kitchen, where he was met with a wonderful smell. Cora just took a dish out of the oven. She turned around and frowned.

“You should not walk on it.”

“It is already getting better; I think it is just bruised.” Robert said, sitting down on one of the kitchen chairs.

“Good.” She put the ‘Pan haggerty’ on two plates and put it in front of Robert. Cora bent down and kissed Robert on his lips. “Thank you for everything.”

 

Is this love? Chapter 42

Cora finally got up from the toilet. She wished she had stayed back at home, she needed Robert right now. She already felt bad for leaving for Downton so soon after Marmaduke’s dead. She washed her hands and checked her pants in the mirror. She had lost quite some blood. There was some spotting on her pants. She could not change her clothes; she had a meeting in about 5 minutes. She wrapped her vest around her waist, took a deep breath and stepped out of the toilet room.

Isobel met her. Cora let out another sigh, she was not in the mood to argue with Isobel right now. But to her surprise, she had a worried look on her face. Isobel stepped closer and asked. “Are you alright?” Looking down at her vest. Cora pulled it a little bit tighter around her waist and nodded.

“Are you sure?” Isobel asked again.

Cora looked up and saw genuine concern. She swallowed, trying to get rid of the lump in her throat. “I need to be. The board is expecting me to present the numbers.”

Isobel wrapped her arm around Cora’s shoulder, this gesture broke Cora and she felt a tear on her cheek. She whipped it away angry; she did not want to cry. Isobel made a sussing sound. “You do not have to tell me what is wrong, but please call Robert. Do you want me to present the numbers?”

The first thought Cora had was that it was very convenient for Isobel that she was a wreck, so now Isobel could run away with the numbers and make it look like she did all the work. But at the same time Cora felt guilty, for this thought, that was not fair. Isobel was really concerned. “Thank you, I will….” Cora stopped mid-sentence when she felt faint. Isobel acted quickly and helped her to the ground.

“Stay here, I am getting Dr. Clarkson.” She said while walking away.

Cora could not even leave; the world was spinning. She put her hands on her abdomen, something was wrong, she felt it. She took her phone out of her bag and texted Robert. ‘I do not want to alarm you, but you should come to Downton as soon as possible.’ When she pressed send, Isobel returned with Dr. Clarkson right behind here.

He kneeled beside her and took her wrist to feel her pulse. “Are you still dizzy?” He asked.

Cora nodded. “I lost some blood earlier.”

Dr. Clarkson’s eyes went down. “I will need to examen you.” He said with a frown, then he looked at Isobel. “Can you get a wheelchair; I don’t want Lady Grantham to walk.”

“Can you please just call me Cora?” She said softly.

He ignored her question. “When did you start to bleed?” He asked instead.

“This morning I saw some spots when I woke up, but I have that on a regular basis, but about 30 minutes ago, I felt a blood clot. When I went to the bathroom, there was some blood in my underwear.” Cora’s phone started to ring, it was Robert. “I need to answer this.” She said apologetic to Dr. Clarkson.

He turned away discreetly when Cora answered her phone.

“What is wrong Cora?” Robert sounded worried.

“Robert, I need you to stay calm, but I just got unwell.” She tried to keep her voice steady.

“Unwell? How do you mean unwell? Where are you? Are you alone? I will send Mrs. Hughes to where you are, she will bring you to Dr. Clarkson.”

“Robert.” Cora said with her soft voice. “I am already in the hospital.”

“What!” Robert almost shouted through the phone. “Cora, what happened?”

“Ssstt.” Cora sussed him. “I was at the hospital for a meeting when I started to feel unwell. I am in the good hands of Dr. Clarkson, but I need you.” That last part she said with a thin voice, almost inaudible.

“I am already in my car. Let me know when you go back to the Abbey, so I know where to find you.” Cora could hear the panic in Robert’s voice. “Cora?” He said unsure. “I need you.”

Cora’s heart ached, of course Robert was incredibly worried, they just buried Marmaduke and now she was here telling him she was unwell. “Robert, it is nothing really serious. Please calm down, I need you here in one peace.” She heard him take a deep breath.

“I see you in two hours.”

In the meantime, Isobel had arrived with a wheelchair and Cora was wheeled into an exam room.

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Robert rushed into the hospital; Cora was still there. Isobel was waiting for him at the entrance. “Where is she?” He asked, forgetting about all the politeness.

“She is resting in one of the rooms, I will bring you to her, but I think she is sleeping.”

Robert nodded and followed Isobel. She opened the door and there she was, his angel. Lying in a hospital bed, she was curled up. A blanket was draped over her, she looked peaceful.

Isobel notched him into the room. “Go on.” She said.

Without making too much noise, Robert sat down next to Cora. Careful he took her hand in his, she opened her eyes directly and he saw she had cried. Her eyes were bright red, there were now also tears welling up. He got up, laid down next to her and pulled her close. He caressed her back and pressed his lips on her head. “I am here.” He murmured. “I am here.”

“We lost another baby.” Cora said without hearable words once her sobbing stopped.

“You were pregnant?” Robert said surprised and immediately realising his mistake.

Cora pressed her face against Robert’s chest. “I did not know I was pregnant, but I just had a miscarriage.”

Robert pressed her even closer to his chest. “Oh, my darling. I am so sorry. I am so sorry.” He felt tears behind his own eyes.

There was a soft knock on the door and Dr. Clarkson entered. Robert quickly got up from the bed, he helped Cora to sit up and sat on his chair again.

“As you both know now, you had a miscarriage.” Dr Clarkson started. “During the scan, I noticed you have a lot of scar tissue in your uterus. I want to do some further testing to see where that is coming from. It can be something innocent, but I need to know that for sure.

Cora looked at Robert and he took her hand, squeezed it softly to encouraged her to tell the whole story.

“Before I met Robert, I was in an abusive relationship. That man has hit me multiple times in my abdomen. One time it caused a miscarriage.” Cora told the whole story about all the times; Anthony had hit her.

“That explains a lot.” Dr. Clarkson said. “Al his actions, caused you uterus to get scar tissue. It is harder for an egg to find a place to settle and even when it settles, it can get lose very easily.”

“So, Cora could never get pregnant.” Robert said, still holding Cora’s hand. His thumb was slowly moving over the back of her hand.

“It is not impossible. You will need an operation.” Dr. Clarkson looked at Cora. “I can remove some of the scar tissue and your change to get a successful pregnancy will increase with 30 to 70%.”

“What are the risks of that operation?” Robert asked.

“The only risks is basically, that it will not work, and you will not be able to get pregnant.”

Robert now looked at Cora. “I think we need to try it.”

Cora lowered her eyes. “Can we talk about this before we make a decision?” She said softly.

“I think that is an excellent idea.” Dr. Clarkson chimed in. “You need to process what happened today and then we will have another talk about what we are going to do.” He got up. “If you are feeling up to it, you may leave and go back home.” He said to Cora.

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Mrs. Hughes offered to bring some tea to the library. Robert looked at Cora and then back to Mrs Hughes. “Tea in my room upstairs is perfectly alright.” He did not want to use the library, although since they were at Downton a lot more, the groundkeepers had pulled back into the backrooms. He knew Cora would prefer the privacy in his room.

“I will take a shower.” Cora said, once Mrs. Hughes had brought the tea and something to eat.

Robert nodded. “Take you time darling. Just let me know if I can help with something.”

Cora stepped close and put her arms around him. She pressed her cheek against Robert’s chest. “Having you close is enough at the moment darling. Thank you for coming.”

Robert took Cora’s face in his hands and kissed the tip of her nose. “For better and for worse. For better and for worse.” Softly he kissed her lips.

 

Is this love? Chapter 41

Cora looked down at her phone, Robert was calling her. She looked up at the room again, everybody was waiting for her to start the presentation. She put her phone back in her pocket and started. She got a little annoyed, Robert knew she was giving this presentation now.

She started her presentation when the door opened, the receptionist was trying to get her attention. Cora signalled she should come closer.

“There is a phone call for you Milady. It is your husband” she said.

Cora’s heart started racing. Her hands were shaking when she brought the phone to her ear.

She sunk onto a chair, her hands folded in her lap, staring at the wall. Isobel stepped closer and put her hand on Cora’s shoulder. “Are you alright my dear?”

Isobel was a far-removed aunt of Robert. She was a board member of the hospital. It took Cora some time to win her over, and she was still hostile against Cora.

Cora felt tears stinging behind her eyes, she bit her lip trying not to cry. She should not cry in front of Isobel; she would see this as weakness. She looked up at Isobel. “Marmaduke has died.”

Isobel let out a soft “oh” and sat down next to Cora. “You need to go home right now.”

“But this presentation, we worked so hard for it, and we need the money.”

“Everybody will understand why you are leaving. Do you think you can drive?”

Cora nodded. “I will manage.”

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Robert walked into Marmaduke’s room, Rosamund was sitting at his side, whispering to him. Robert put his hands on her shoulders and tried to get her to stand up.

“Rosamund, you need to eat something. It has been hours.”

Rosamund shook his hand of her shoulders. “I am not leaving him, not yet. I cannot.”

Robert kneeled next to his sister; it was hard to see her in this distress. She had loved Marmaduke with all her heart and even more. He was the love of her life and taken to early. He did not know what to say to her.

Rosamund stared at Marmaduke.

Robert walked out of the room and was walking into his mother.

“How is she doing?” She asked.

“Not well, she does not want to eat. She wants to stay with him.” Robert frowned.

“I will try.” Violet sad softly and closed the door behind her.

Robert sank on one of the chairs, he put his head in his hands. Why did this happen, what did Marmaduke do wrong? They did not deserve this. They should be together for the rest of their lives, raising children. How could his sister be a widow already. Suddenly he felt familiar hands on his shoulder. He looked up into the eyes of Cora.

Before he could get up, she was already down on her knees in front of him. She wrapped both arms around him and pulled Robert close. Her hands rubbing his back slowly. Robert felt he could finally cry. He had held his tears in, to be strong for Rosamund, but now he was in Cora’s arms he could not be strong anymore. He heard Cora’s soft voice sussing him and he managed to control his tears. He took a deep breath and leaned back a little. Cora’s hand moved to his knees. She looked up at him. Her eyes were speaking, but not a sound came from her mouth. He found consolation in her eyes.

Robert put his hand on Cora’s cheek. “Thank you for coming home directly.”

“Darling, I am sorry I was in Downton. How are you doing, and how is Rosamund?”

“I don’t know how I am doing. I don’t think Rosamund understands what has happened to the full extend.”

“Her heart is not ready to accept this loss.” Cora said. “Is she with Marmaduke?”

“Mama is with her now.” Robert said.

“Cora, I think Rosamund needs you.” Violet’s voice sounded.

Cora got up, brushed her finger over Robert’s cheek and followed Violet. Violet did not say a word, she just opened the door to Marmaduke’s room. Cora took in a shaky breath when she saw the still face of Marmaduke. He was laying there very peacefully. Rosamund was sitting next to his bed, with one of his hands in hers. Cora saw Rosamund’s thumb stroking Marmaduke’s hand.

“Hi.” Cora said softly, trying not to scare Rosamund.

Rosamund looked up and when she saw Cora, the tears started flowing over her cheeks. Cora rushed closer and pulled her close. “You cry now, darling. Just cry.” Was the only thing Cora said. She held Rosamund close to her body until she felt that Rosamund took in a deep breath. She pulled a chair close and sat down, Cora took Rosamund’s hand in hers. “I am so incredibly sorry you have to go through this.”

Rosamund nodded. “It is not fair. Why he? Why us? I cannot live without him. Oh Cora, I don’t know what to do now.”

“For now, you should come with me and try to eat something.”

Rosamund shook her head. “I am not hungry.”

“I know, darling, I know, but you need to eat something.”

Reluctantly Rosamund got up and followed Cora out of the room. Cora saw Robert getting up, but she signalled he should stay put. She saw Violet was also sitting back down. She was happy they both understood. She guided Rosamund towards the cafeteria, put her down at a table and ordered a cheese sandwich and a cup of soup. She walked back to where Rosamund was sitting. “Here, try to eat this. You do not need to eat everything but try to eat something.”

Rosamund at first was taking small bites, but before Cora realised it, Rosamund had finished the soup and sandwich.

“I guess I was hungry.” Rosamund said and there was a little smile on her face.

“Good, now let’s go home. You can sleep at our place.”

“No, no I want to be in my own home. Marmaduke’s and mine.”

“Do you want me to stay with you?” Cora asked.

“Would you do that?” Rosamund looked up with pleading eyes.

Cora reached over the table and took her hands. “Of course, I would do that, I am here for you always.” She saw Rosamund bite her lip. Quickly she got up, took Rosamund’s hand in hers and walked back to where Robert and Violet were sitting. “We are ready to go home.” She announced.

Violet stepped towards Rosamund and Cora discreetly stepped back. She did not listen in.

Robert took her hand. “Darling.” Cora said. “I will sleep at Rosamund tonight, is that alright?”

Robert looked at Cora with so much love in his eyes. “You are an incredible woman, thank you for doing this.” He kissed her cheek.

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The service was lovely and very well attended. Rosamund had been strong and said some beautiful words. Once all the guests had left, she turned towards Cora and Robert. She took Cora’s hands in hers.

“Thank you for all you have done the last days. I don’t know how to thank you.”

Cora saw tears in Rosamund’s eyes. She squeezed Rosamund’s hands. “There is no need to thank me. Do you promise you call when you need something? Even if it is in the middle of the night and you just want to talk.”

Rosamund nodded. “I promise.”

 

Is this love? Chapter 40

Robert handed the service over to John; he was going home earlier today. When he left this afternoon, Cora was not acting like herself and he wanted to be sure, she was feeling all right. He stopped at the flower shop and bought some sunflowers, to cheer her up. When he got home, he could not find Cora. The kitchen was empty, and so where the living room and her office.

She could be doing the groceries. He put the flowers in a vase, it amazed him Cora was not home. But at the same time, he didn´t know what Cora did when he was not home. Was Adeline in London? She could be there; he should text her. He walked to the hall to get his phone when he heard the toilet upstairs flush.

Robert called Cora, but she did not respond. Something was wrong, he felt it. He walked upstairs, he found her in the bedroom, covered under the blankets. He sat down on the bed and put his hand on her shoulder. He felt her shoulder jolting. He pulled down the duvet cover and brushed his thumb over her cheek. “Cora?” He asked softly.

She looked up at him, her eyes were red from her crying.

“Cora, what happened?” His hand now rested on Cora’s back and he softly moved his hand up and down. A lot of thoughts run through his head. Did somebody die? But he could not think who. She would have called him if it was Adeline. Marmaduke could not be the one, because Rosamund would have called him. Did she lose her job? No, that was not possible, Andrew was so happy to have her in his company.

He bent down and kissed Cora’s temple. “Darling?” He tried again.

Cora’s sobbing finally slowed down. She took Robert’s hand. “I thought I was pregnant.”

Robert was lost for words. “I am sorry, we will keep trying.”

“You do not understand.” Cora said and pulled her hand back.

“What do you mean?” Robert asked.

“This is the third time, I was late, but got my period in the end.”

“Cora, why did you not tell me this earlier?”

“What would you have done? You cannot change the fact, that I cannot get pregnant.” Cora said irritated.

Robert shifted on the matrass. “Cora, please, do not shut me out. I would love to have a little one together with you.”

They were interrupted by the doorbell, Robert got up, he gave Cora another kiss on her forehead and walked downstairs.

Rosamund surprised him when he opened the door.

“Rosamund?” Robert exclaimed and kissed his sister on her cheek.

“I needed to get out of the house and hoped you or Cora would be home.”

“Come in, come in.” Robert stepped back to let her in. “You want some tea?”

Rosamund nodded.

Robert heard the bedroom door close, and Cora walked downstairs. She kissed Rosamund on her cheek. “Good to see you sis.” She said.

Rosamund wrapped her arm around Cora’s waist. “It is good to be out of the house.”

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They had chatted for a while when Rosamund looked at Cora. “You don’t have to stay here if you do not feel well.”

Cora coloured. “I am alright.” She lied.

Rosamund gave Cora a look, Robert decided it was time for him to leave the room. “I will start dinner, Rosamund do you stay for dinner?

She looked at her watch. “Yes, let me call Julia.” Julia was caring for Marmaduke, but also took a lot of housework out of Rosamund’s hands.

When Robert had left, Rosamund sat down next to Cora on the sofa. “Can you tell me what is wrong? Is Robert not good for you?”

Cora chuckled. “Your brother is an angel, sometimes even to caring.”

Now it was Rosamund’s turn to laugh. “Oh, don’t tell me, he is smothering you?”

“Some days, he is indeed.”

“He is so incredibly in love with you, we cannot blame him.”

Cora smiled.

“But that is not what is bothering you.” Rosamund said.

Cora shook her head. “You are right. I think, I cannot get pregnant.”

“Cora! You are married for a month now, don’t give up.”

Cora’s cheeks turned bright red. “We didn’t start trying after our marriage. We never used protection.”

“Oh” Rosamund said softly.

“This is the third time, I thought I was pregnant. But I got my period again.”

Rosamund wrapped her arm around Cora’s shoulders. “I am sorry to hear this. Did you and Robert talk with a doctor?”

Cora shook her head again. “Not yet I didn’t tell Robert about the previous two times. But today, he found me crying.”

“Cora!” Rosamund rebukingly. “You need to talk with Robert. He is also part of this.”

“I know, I know.” Cora said ashamed. “I do not want to see him in pain over this.”

“So, you suffer alone? Cora, Robert is your husband, and he would love to have children with you, but if that is not possible, you two need to process that together. Do not shut him out.”

“Dear.” Robert’s voice sounded. “I wish you would have told me this before. I married you for better and for worse. And if this is our worse, I want to go through it together with you. You do not need to do this alone.” He kneeled in front of her.

Cora reached her hand to his cheek and kissed his lips briefly. “I am sorry, sweetheart. I know this is also something that involves you. I do not know why I was not sharing. I am so incredibly scared something is wrong, and telling you, would make that fear real.” Cora felt tears dripping down her cheeks.

Robert pulled her close, his hand on her head and let her cry on his shoulder.

Rosamund got up and walked to the kitchen. Should she leave? She saw Robert was indeed cooking for three. She decided to finish the cooking and wait for them to come to the kitchen. She felt a pain in her heart, she would have loved to have children with Marmaduke, but she never got pregnant and now…………..

 

Is this love? Chapter 39

Adeline put the last strand of curls up, stepped back and looked at her work. Cora’s curls were flowing like a waterfall over her back.

Adeline stepped back, put her hands on Cora’s shoulders, kissed her cheek and asked: “Are you ready?”

Cora looked at her through the mirror. With a thin voice she said: “I think I am.”

Adeline kneeled beside her and took her hands in hers. “This is the first day of your new life, trust in Robert. He will not disappoint you.”

Cora lowered her eyes. “But what if I disappointment to him?”

Adeline caressed her cheek. “Don’t worry too much, go and enjoy this day. Harold is waiting in the hallway to give you away.”

Cora gave herself one last look in the mirror. She was wearing a simple dress. She did not want to look royal, although Adeline had tried to persuade her into a silkier corset dress, she chose a dress that uses clever seam and lace placement to accentuate her waist, enhanced by a strong V front and plunging low back. The cap sleeves balance gave the dress an elegant and modest finish. She was pleased with her choice.

Harold’s mouth dropped when she stepped out into the hallway. “Lady, what have you done to my sister.” He said.

Cora giggled and linked her arm in his. “Thank you for being here and bringing Mama.”

“She wouldn’t miss your wedding day for anything. Come, they are waiting for you.”

Robert felt sweat dripping over his back, he was incredibly nervous. He looked around the room and saw Rosamund next to his mother, Anna and John and the rest of his team were sitting behind them. On the other side there was Martha, Andrew, and some colleagues of Cora. Adeline came walking in and took her seat next to Martha. She winked at Robert. The pianist and string players started ‘The King’s Speech – Alexandre Desplat’. The doors opened and there she was, his bride. Robert was stunned, she looked beautiful, he did not know what to expect from her dress, she had not told him anything. He loved how her dress showed off her slim figure. Slowly she walked towards him, smiling.

“Take good care of her.” Harold said, when he handed her to him.

Robert kissed her cheek and whispered. “You look wonderful.”

“So do you.” She smiled. Robert was wearing a dark three-piece suit. The waist coat was a lighter green, and his dress-shirt was the same colour as Cora’s dress.

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“You may now kiss the bride.” The officiant said.

Robert leaned in and softly he pressed his lips against hers.

Why was he so careful? Cora thought, they had shared better kisses before, was it because everybody was watching? Well, she did not care what everybody would think. She put her hand on his lower back and pulled him even closer, pressed her lips against his and touched his lips with her tongue. He got the hint and kissed her with more passion. He even bent her backwords, so she was leaning into his arm.

When they finally broke the connection, there was a cheer coming from the room. Cora got bright red cheeks when she looked at her mother. But Martha was all smiles and was applauding. Cora looked at Violet and there was even a smile on her face. Even though it was a small one, there was a smile.

Robert took her hand and walked her out of the room. When the door closed behind them, he pulled her close again, he crashed his mouth on hers. “What a wonderful feeling, kissing you as my wife.”

“Is that different?” Cora asked with a cheeky smile.

Robert put his hand on her lower back and pressed her against his body. “It definitely is.” He wanted to kiss her again, but the doors opened, and all the guest walked out. Last came Rosamund and Marmaduke. Cora took his hand. “Thank you for being here today, I know how tired you must be.”

Marmaduke raised his hand to her cheek. “I couldn’t miss this day. My brother-in-law who marries his princess is something I needed to witness.” He looked at Robert. “I need to thank you for arranging this wedding early.”

Robert patted his shoulder. “We needed you here, how could I marry without my best man. Come the champagne is waiting.”

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After the dinner, Cora and Robert were standing at the door to say goodbye to everybody. John shook Robert’s hand, “Good luck with your beautiful bride.”

Cora smiled at Anna. “How are you feeling?” She looked down at her belly.

Anna put her hand on her belly. “I am feeling good still, next month we will see this little one.” John stepped close and put his hand on her belly. “Maybe this little one will have a play date in 9 months.” He winked at Cora and Robert.

Robert saw Cora’s face and he was not sure what he saw on it. Was she thinking of the little one she lost? His attention was drawn by his mother, who put her hand on his arm.

“I hope you will be happy and that you made the right decision.” Violet said.

Robert leaned in on his mother and whispered. “Please, Mama, not today. This is a happy day.”

Violet nodded, kissed Cora on her cheek and left.

Martha was next in line, with Harold. “My darling daughter, finally you have found real luck. I can’t express how happy I am for you.” She looked at Robert. “You have something very precious of mine, please take good care of her.”

Harold chimed in, “We know where you live.” But he winked at the same time as he said it. Dear little sisters, good luck making tea for this English man every day.”

Cora laughed. “I am not allowed to make his tea, I still don’t know how, he says.” She leaned in on Robert shoulder.

Robert kissed the top of her head and smiled. “One day, I will trust you with it, just not yet.”

“You are way to picky over your tea.” Adeline said. “Cora isn’t that bad.” She kissed her on her cheek. “Enjoy your first night as a married couple.” She chuckled.

Cora noticed that there we only friends now waiting in line to say goodbye. She put her face close to Robert’s ear and whispered. “Where are Rosamund and Marmaduke?”

Robert turned his face. “They had to leave early; Marmaduke wasn’t feeling well.”

Cora let out a soft. “Oh no.” But turned her face towards the guests again, to receive some more well wishes. She had trouble to keep the smile on her face. What if this day was too much for Marmaduke? She should text Rosamund as soon as all the guests were gone. She should take some load of her shoulders.

Robert put his hand around her waist and softly squeezed her side. Cora shook up from her thoughts and looked in the face of Andrew.

“I guess you are tired after this long day.” He said with a smile on his face.

Cora forced a smile on her face and nodded.

“Well, I won’t make it long. I am incredibly happy for you that you found your knight.” He shook Robert’s hand and left.

Andrew was the last guests to say goodbye. Some staff members were still in the room, they would close the restaurant.

“Ready to go home?”

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Robert helped Cora out of the car and just before they entered their home, he lifted her up and carried her over the doorstep. When he put her down, he saw a worried wrinkle on her forehead. Robert turned Cora towards him and lifted her chin up. “Don’t you worry too much about Rosamund and Marmaduke. Rosamund promised me, she would call if something was really wrong.”

Cora sighed. “I hope this day wasn’t too much.”

“He enjoyed this day to the fullest. That is what is important now.”

Cora kissed him. “You are right.”

“Mrs. Cora Crawley, I am always right.” Robert chuckled.

“Hmmm, I love that sound.”

Robert scoped her up again and walked upstairs. “Well, Mrs. Cora Crawley, let’s see what you are hiding under this beautiful dress!”

Cora buried her face in Robert’s neck and pressed her lips against his skin. “Forever your Mrs. Cora Crawley.” she murmured.